So I'm sure some of you might know I have been hung up on the topic of imperfections.
By imperfections, I'm talking about "Positive Imperfections": which is an intentional omission of an act of charity that is not obliged...or an act that was good but didn't fulfill it's whole potential of goodness.
So in other words, "not choosing the greater good"
There was a bishop who described a positive imperfection as "having the ability to do 66% but only decide to do 33%"
My question is what is the scenario with somebody who WANTS and does everything in his power to do the better good but doesn't have the grace to achieve it and his efforts failed? Is that considered "choosing the better act"?
So if somebody does everything in their power to try to reach 66% but only have the compacity to get to 55%...is that still pleasing to God and the person chose the greater good?
I ask because alot of times I WILL the greater good to happen but I always fail..so I worry I'm committing a positive imperfection and have sinned...and there is nothing I can do about it, thus leading me to despair:(
One of the examples I'm talking about is loving God out of love instead of fear. I WANT to do all things for the love of God. I WILL things trying to FORCE the love of God in all things I do and try my hardest to fight the desire of the servile fear...but I fail and have a deeper fear of his punishments when I do the said action.