A Vocation is a calling. Yet, it is something that is revealed, slow and in stages. Currently, I am working on founding my own religious community. My time in the military and my time in discernment with other mendicant groups has proved to be very fruitful in this process.
A few years ago, I started feeling the call to the Rule of St. Columcille. He is one of the three greatest Saints of the Irish/Scottish regions. I was living as a Lay Dominican at the time and was not finding a lot of grace there. My family has strong ties to Scotland, my family name is actually Macgregor. It was nothing that I did, I was looking into my roots, trying to figure out how to live my Catholic faith, the right direction for me and my life. I was reading many books at the time, but this particular book was called “The Celtic Monk” by the Cistercians. I read through it, SEVERAL times. I first started following St. Ailbe. He was a Welsh saint, and I found a lot of joy in his writings and rule. The only problem was that it was too monastic. I’m very much a mendicant at heart, I believe in going out and spreading the gospel amongst the people, not just cloistered prayer and manual labor. This was where St. Columba came in. When I read through his rule I saw that it was wholly spiritual and could be easily adapted to the needs of my own life.
I am a married man, I have been married for almost 9 months now. I have been living the rule of S. Columcille for almost two years. I have been given so much grace in this life, and my marriage to my wife has only increased that grace in this calling. The calling God put on me was evangelization and catechesis. That’s what my Master’s degree is in and that’s what I will finish with in less than a year. In the meantime, the formation element takes a toll and it is difficult, but so worth it. I have seen a humility come across me in this life that I did not have before, and I have seen the joy of Christ become fully alive. God’s vision for this community he has demanded of me is a calling for Married men to step up and lay down their lives for the Gospel. St. Adomnan calls the Columcillian disciple a “Soldier of Christ”. That’s how I see myself, as a soldier. My community is my wife, she participates in my calling and supports me as I support her. My calling forces my family to live the precepts of the Church, to establish the family as a community of evangelization by being witness to the sacrifice required of by the Gospel.
So in essence, a vocation is something revealed, not something chosen. I never really chose this vocation, yet God has put it upon me so that man might know the goodness of Him who sent me. For if I gain a reward on earth, then I will lose my reward in heaven. If I do this for myself, then I gain the prestigious reward, but if I do it for God, answering his call, then I gain the heavenly reward of the robe and crown.