obviously im in a position where i dont want to be. im losing faith and finding myself asking God (why), why why why.
i hate doing that, but i dont know what else to say. to0 many questions and no answers. my future is uncertain, if i have a future. is seems to me that everyday is a struggle. i find myself craweled up in a corner not knowing what to do and how to get over it. im a mess. i am truly all alone. no friend no family no nothing. just finding myself asking god why.
why cant god give me peace? im a good person. why cant god give me a break in this thing called life? do i deserve to be miserbale all my life. maybe there are few people in this world that would never have happiness, love, healing,peace. im begining to think im one of those people.
i think that god is tired of me asking this question. i cant seem to get any answers.
i need to be in a position where im in faith again. and stop asking god why. why me
i hope i can find some releave