What is the correct thing to do in this situation, besides turn back time and change the mistakes I made in my life???
I am a catholic who had fallen away from the Church in my teens-twenties. I was married in my mid twenties, and because of my indifference to the Church, felt it was not a big deal to be married in the Lutheran (my husband’s) Church. This did not cause any problems until just recently when I realized that the Catholic faith is the truth through some wonderful revelations.
Now I find myself being torn, between staying married to the man I promised God I would spend the rest of my life with 6 years ago, and being able to raise my children in the truth, without causing damage by introducing two faiths to them.
My husband is very adament and always has been that he will never become Catholic, or allow our children to be raised Catholic. (However, that doesn’t stop me from praying for his conversion. ) It seems that God has gone through great lengths to show me the truth, why then does it feel like the truth is tearing my family apart? I have faith that if I have patience and humility God will take care of the rest, but as of now I find this situation leading me to sin.
It is scandal to take communion at a church other than Catholic. Well, how am I supposed to sit in the pew when we go to my husbands church while he takes the children up? What am I supposed to say to them? Every time we go there (which is every other week, we alternate churches now) I find myself full of anxiety the whole service, knowing that within that hour I am either going to end up sinning or confusing my children, and causing them to ask questions that would confuse them even more. I’ll be honest. I haven’t been able to justify this, and in trying to keep our family unit together, I do go up with them.
It also seems that any truth about my faith that differs from his, is putting a wall up between us. I feel so torn. If I gave in, perhaps I could once again find a marraige to salvage- but in doing so I feel I would be turning my back on God.
I realize it was my choices that have got me to this point. Maybe there is no good answer…