Ok so here it goes… I am a female in my late twenties and am single. I believe that I am being called to the married life. I met this really nice gentleman at Church several months ago who is a few years older than me. I was quickly drawn to him (physically attracted in a non-sexual way). He is kind and considerate and I have been noticing that my respect for him has been immensely growing. He has just recently left the seminary after being there for several years.
Well, I feel there is a possibility that he may like me too based on our communication. I may be thinking too far ahead, however, one thing that really concerns me is IF he would like to begin courtship, how exactly I can tell him that I am not a virgin. I reverted back to the Catholic faith on my own last year after being raised in a non-practicing Catholic family and after living a very wordly life. I am immensely ashamed of my past sins, however, am learning to forgive myself as I do physically and spiritually feel that the good Lord has forgiven me providing that I live a chaste life to which I have been since I have reverted back to the faith. By passing this judgment onto myself I know that by doing so I am underestimating God’s mercy thus not trusting Him and I know this is exactly what satan wants.
Could you please help me with the following questions:
Does he have a right to know all of my sins in the past? (e.g. how many partners I have been with - as there have been a few since I was 18) etc.
How could I approach this with him; and when during the courtship should I tell him? Will he quite point blank ask me if I am a virgin?
In your opinion, does the fact that I am not a virgin mean that I would not deserve him as much as another woman who is a virgin does?
Thank you so much for your time and God bless.