OutinChgoburbs I am angry and very angry. I did not mean to come across as been as (angry and rather condescending in tone). I just feel that is so unfair. I never asked for all this I never asked for my ex to up and leave me one day after 13 years of marriage.
I thought I was going to be married forever. I have tolerated so much from my ex. The physical abuse, emotional abuse, cheating, lying and deceiving. And still at the end of the day I am the one who is suffering. My ex is happy with his now 21 year old girlfriend and their two year old son. That he is so proud to show off to his family. He talks to everybody about his 2 year old son instead of about his 7 year old beautiful, clever and intellengent daughter or about his 10 year old handson, clever son. I am the one who cannot go receive communion. I am the one who cannot date or want to be with any man.
I am sorry and I did not mean to be condescending. And I don’t mean to be so angry or feel sorry for myself. But at the end of the day I am the one who was abused for many years and told how fat I am and how no man would ever want me. I was the one who was beating up so many times and still loved my husband and stayed married to him. I was the one who arranged to go to Retrouvaille but after going away on the weekend and followup sessions and on the last day was told that he was not going to give up porn or improve his ways. And still I stayed in the marriage even when there was other women I still stayed.
And now I just want to forget that I was ever married to that man. He cannot acknowledge or support his kids. He made it very clear to me that the only reason why he married me was because I was pregnant and he was forced to. But that was not true nobody forced him and he made me feel all those years that he could do better than me.