i’m 19 and i’ve spent all my life as a catholic, but sometimes it gets really really hard to believe. each time someone tells me they love me, they end up hurting me in ways i dont feel like describing. it makes me wonder how different can God’s love be? is it wrong that i don’t want to think of God as someone who’s loving because it scares me? things that happened make me so scared of the whole idea of love, even if its supposed to be God’s unconditional love.
i find it so hard to sit through mass because there are so many things i doubt even though i know it is my duty to go, and that God is real. it makes me feel like a hypocrite when i go to mass.
i really dont know what to do. please help?