I am currently in a situaton where I have to make a very major life decision. (I am not comfortable posting the details because you never really know who is on the internet)
Nonetheless here are my 2 options
1-) Stay where I am in a situation that is really not all that bad on the surface but on the inside I resent. I would constantly 'fool' myself with statements like 'It really isn't that bad' and 'I can't exect to have it all' and constantly pray to God to take my resentments away
2-) Make a change in my life where I could not easily go back to option 1 (or perhaps never go back to option 1) and hope it works out for the best. However, on the surface option 2 does not sound as safe as 1 and could potentially have some risks.
The Catholic in me believes I should pray for God's will. The human in me just wants to take option 2 and hope for the best. I find myself convincing myself that option 2 will work out.
My concern is, I so desparatly want option 2 that God could speak into a loud speaker in my home and I would not hear Him say 'Stick with option 1 CM, I will take care of you'
I am mature enough to know that no matter what I choose, I will always have issues and need to grow and that option 2 will not be an escape from myself. But yet I still want option 2 even if it means continuing to honestly see my real self eveytime I look in the mirror.
When I was younger I use to think that one little mistake and I would be doomed for life and be miserable forever. Now, I am kind of hoping that if I take option 2 and it is the biggest mistake of my life, God will still be there to take care of me in the end.
So, the question is: What do others do when they really want to hear God and how do they know it is genuinly God's voice?