[quote="Casilda, post:80, topic:381176"]
I have wondered about the state of the church today in light of Jesus' parable of the lost sheep (Luke 15).
3 Then Jesus told them this parable: 4 “Suppose one of you has a hundred sheep and loses one of them. Doesn’t he leave the ninety-nine in the open country and go after the lost sheep until he finds it? 5 And when he finds it, he joyfully puts it on his shoulders 6 and goes home. Then he calls his friends and neighbors together and says, ‘Rejoice with me; I have found my lost sheep.’ 7 I tell you that in the same way there will be more rejoicing in heaven over one sinner who repents than over ninety-nine righteous persons who do not need to repent.
That is how I see my priest, as Christ himself, bringing my husband and I back into the fold. It makes me wonder if it was Satan causing all the problems or God himself closing those doors and keeping me from reentering. I did a lot of soul searching, praying, reading about the saints (St. Faustina, esp.), I have learned I am not a modern Latin Catholic, I have an old Catholic spirituality.
I know that God would never close the door. I believe Satan wants me to stay out, as he also knows the good I can do for myself and others once I am fully reunited with the Church in receipt of all the Sacraments.
I love the parable about the lost sheep. I was lost and am desperate to find my way back. I don't get the feeling my priest or anyone else is carrying me on their shoulders. I feel very much alone.
No one but me feels any sense of urgency. The Eparchy requested 3 items from the Diocese on January 6. I never got the paperwork until February 11 (what happened for 5 weeks?). I got the necessary information and the documents back to the priest in a week and a half. The priest had everything on February 26 and it was not sent to the Eparchy from the Diocese until March 16 - 10 weeks since the initial request. It's hard to understand how it takes 2 1/2 months to get a few documents from one place to the other.
In the meantime, I never know where things stand and am made to sit and wonder. Even though I have been waiting 2 years since the beginning of my request to have our marriage blessed by the Church and repeatedly expressed my distress to my priest, nothing changes. If I don't contact my priest, I hear nothing. I understand he is extremely busy with many duties, but as the parable says “Suppose one of you has a hundred sheep and loses one of them. Doesn’t he leave the ninety-nine in the open country and go after the lost sheep until he finds it?"