Oh, Nebula, I do hope (and pray) you’ll join us!
This article might help you with the contraception issue. It did me!
In the matter of abortion… I’ll try to be concise about what I believe. It will probably make me seem terse, but it’s just because I’m keeping the verbiage down.
It’s scientific fact that, at the moment of conception - even before that first cell divides - a new genome is created, with half its DNA from the mother, and half from the father. This is a new human being, and an innocent one. It is neither fair nor just to kill it just because it was conceived during the commission of a horrible crime. (I can certainly understand the desire to do so.) In fact, the mother can reject the evil of the crime by giving the baby the gift of life, and also by giving it up for adoption - giving some loving couple the ultimate gift. (Not that it’s easy.)
Since the zygote is a developing human, it is not a “blob of cells.” If it’s OK to kill a developing human in the womb, then it’s OK to kill a human at *any *stage of developing. Abortion is murder.
This one is even tougher: We may not abort a baby even if it threatens the mother’s life. We must wait until the threat becomes real; if the baby dies during emergency surgery to save the mother’s life, we can live with that, and grieve. The death of the baby is a side effect of the emergency surgery, not a direct abortion.
We may not abort a baby even if it will die soon after birth. We may not abort a baby if it is not perfect. We take what God gives us. Did you know that 90 percent of all babies with Down’s Syndrome are murdered in the womb? How horrible. All babies are a gift from God, not just the healthy ones.
If you can’t bring yourself to agree with these issues, then don’t become a Catholic, because you wouldn’t be a faithful one. But if you find that you trust the teachings of the Church on other issues, and can take it on trust that she’s right about these things and you just don’t yet know why, then go ahead. I did! And when I found out why she teaches these things, I found Christ’s love in all of it, and accepted it.
God bless you,