I am a stay at home wife due to physical and mental illness. I am unable to hold down work for very long because of it. So I spend most of my time at home. I have trouble getting out of the house/volunteering much also because of it. We are infertile so there aren’t any children and likely won’t be any anytime soon, if ever.
I try to get the chores around the house done. I don’t keep an immaculate house, but try to do the basics. In between chores and also during the long hours of waiting for my husband to come home (he works very long hours quite a bit of the time) I try to keep my mind occupied on non-religious leisure activities (reading, tv, video cames, internet, crafts, puzzles, etc.) I try to say little short prayers on and off throughout the day. I wonder at times if I’m doing enough for God, but at the same time have some pretty heavy crosses that I’m carrying and most of the time I just try to distract my mind away from them best I can. This includes not praying very much. When I pray I think of my crosses or I become scrupulous and usually wind up crying. I just can’t do that very often as it takes a huge emotional toll on me after a while.
So, am I wrong in spending the good majority of my days in leisure time?