I was raised a Catholic. From a very young age, I’ve always believed in God. Maybe I didn’t when I was younger, I may even blindly followed just because my parents wanted me to. I don’t remember now anymore for sure, but I am pretty sure the belief was real.
I am now 19 years old, and over the past year my views on everything in general have changed.
First off all, I’d like to say I believe in God, not because I was told to believe in God, but because I cannot fathom any other possible explanation of the origin to the universe. I also do not believe that the series of events that eventually have lead to human consciousness and awareness of one’s own being could have been a fluke - no way. Something greater than any mind can comprehend set this up. So, the only thing I can think of is that there is a universal creator, otherwise if somehow proven not, I would end up believing that the universe is an illusion and does not really exist.
However, I do not know for sure weather this universal creator is the Christian God I once believed Him to be. I found a few problems with my religion’s description of him - for example, God having human-like qualities (and thus making Him imperfect).
I still however, despite this changed view, feel the love of God, and love Him back. Weather or not He is the Christian God, or some kind of mysterious metaphysical force that our minds cannot comprehend - because I honestly do not know, and I honestly do not even know if that matters or not, because I do believe in “The Creator”.
Just thought I’d share, I want some feedback - did anyone else go through similar, any comments? Do you think I’ve still got a shot at eternity with my different viewpoint if I did go off-track?