I've been discerning for a while and I was really wanting to become religious. I didn't know where I was going exactly, but I didn't really think I was going to do anything besides the religious life. Then recently, I did a novena to St. Therese before her feast day. I asked for a red rose if I was called to the married life, a white rose if the religious life, and pink rose if I was not supposed to know yet. I told St. Therese the night before the last day that I needed a real rose. One that I could hold in my hand that was beyond a doubt intended as a gift for me.
The next morning as soon as I got up I prayed the last day of the novena and headed out the door to class. There hanging on my door was red rose. It was a real rose and sitting in a bag of water. In fact the whole lounge outside my room was full of red roses and pictures and quotes from St. Therese. One of my suite-mates, whose patron saint and middle name is Therese, decided to go all out with decorating the night before. She gave everyone in our suite a red rose on their door.
At first I was upset. Then I thought maybe this isn't the one. I'm not sure what I would have thought if I had gotten another rose that day. I would probably have just been confused. But I didn't get any more roses. Not a single one did I see that day besides the red ones all over the suite.
l was going to go on a Nun Run over spring break and visit several orders with some other girls from my college. Now, I'm not sure if I should go. I sent a lot of emails to the coordinator suggesting orders and she is kind of assuming I'm going. It would still be fun, but do you think I should still go? I'm just not sure how definitive a rose is. How seriously should I take it? Should I plan my life around it?