I messed up my last Confession. I didn’t put my sins in the proper order and I got very emotional. I started crying and when I cry my throat gets tight and I can’t talk clearly without yelling. I also thought it would be better to go in and sit in the chair instead of behind the screen, which added to my distress. I really messed up. I have mortal sins that are unforgiving. I am currently in a non-english speaking country, and will be for a long time. I don’t know enough of the language to make a clean Confession. What can I do? I’m worried I will die before I can, in which case I’m going to hell. How can I be forgiven?
(I know Jesus died for my salvation, but I don’t believe that excuses me from going to hell when I deserve it. )