Brothers and Sisters,
As I’ve mentioned in some previous threads, I am currently engaged on a struggle for purity. The situation has certainly been improving, but sometimes I keep falling in the masturbation sin.
It usually happens in the morning (I shall take measures against this), where I’m usually not very well awaken. I’m been to the confession a lot, and the priests to who I talk to (who happen to be quite ortodox) are divided. Some warn me to not to focus too much on that issue, and to avoid being scrupulous, others don’t make any comment about my behaviour.
I am wondering: how can you be really sure of the nature of your sin? I certainly have to ask this to my spiritual director, but I’ll only meet him in 3 weeks or so.
Probably some of you will say: “Well, it will appear obvious to you if you pray and if you meditate about it”. Yes, sometimes it’s obvious, but in cases where the border isn’t clear, if I meditate and reach the conclusion that it was not a mortal sin, how can I know that I’m not being fooled by the devil?