I’ve already read through a few forums on here from the past relating to pride, and they were incredibly insightful, but I’m interested in an aspect of pride that I don’t think I saw anyone comment on and one I’ve really been struggling with.
What is the right balance between saying “I did this” (“this” being any sort of accomplishment or achievement) and saying “God did this”? Or how does this balance work in the context of pride?
As an example, I recently deleted some apps off my phone because I knew they were detrimental to my health, and I was really proud of myself for doing that. I’ve been trying to work on gratefulness and humility recently, so I tried to thank God by saying “God, YOU did this!” but something about it just simply didn’t feel right. I was the one that deleted the apps, not God–unless I wanted to call myself God, which obviously couldn’t be farther from the truth. But by lifting up this thing as God’s work and not mine, it simply seemed false. I was claiming something happened that didn’t really happen.
As a result, it felt like I was losing a part of myself, or a part of my accomplishment, since I tried to claim that it wasn’t something that I did. It felt entirely limiting. I know God isn’t limiting, he’s life-giving, but striving for gratefulness in this way felt incredibly limiting, and in a way that didn’t seem beneficial or truthful.
To clarify, deleting those apps wasn’t something that God told me to do either, at least in prayer. As in, it wasn’t some sort of direct revelation from God where He told me to delete those apps. So it feels like it was entirely my accomplishment. I just want to know how to view this with humility and gratefulness.
I know something menial like deleting a few apps doesn’t seem like a lot, but I think there are implications here for how to view pride and gratefulness on a more widespread level. What are your thoughts on this?