I guess it’s a very common question, but…how can you figure out what you’re supposed to do with your life when you have NO clue at all?
I am almost 23 years old, and am currently a yoga instructor and administrator of the yoga studio I work at. After I was done with the International Baccalaureate (after high school), I wanted to study Literature, but when my dad asked me to stop for a second, breathe, and take the time to think whether it was really what I wanted, I realized I wasn’t sure. I took some time to figure things out, and that’s when I found yoga. I kept on practicing yoga, and eventually (after 2 years), I decided to go to school. Signed up for the program of Political Science and Government, greatly influenced by my dad and my ex-boyfriend. Eventually I realized that wasn’t what I wanted, either. I’ve always felt a really strong calling to serve, and I thought I could manipulate Political Science into being the way for me to do that…but it wasn’t. I then decided to change programs, to Philosophy. Eventually I felt something was seriously off with school as a whole, like it wasn’t for me. I started failing every course, and I had already started working at the yoga studio, so I decided to drop out of school (at least momentarily).
I love teaching yoga, I feel in the classes I teach I allow myself to be an instrument for God to spread His message of love. Teaching yoga is something I know I’ll do for the rest of my life… however, I need more. And I don’t know what that is. I thought of Psychology, but that’s not it, either. I thought of becoming a full-time volunteer, but that’s not it. I would love to, but I also want something that might give me financial stability, especially for the future, seeing as I would like to get married and have a family.
What do you do when all you have for certain in your life is a calling to serve and spread, more than God’s message, His love? Has anyone been here before? I want to be able to work with people, to help them however I can, to love them…but I have no clue how to figure out what exactly that means. I feel lost regarding this, and it makes me feel really insecure. My boyfriend is on his way to get a Masters degree, and I’ve got nothing… I feel a lot of pressure, that I put on myself; especially because if there’s the possibility of getting married some years from now, once he’s done with his Masters…well…gosh, I don’t know. I think I really look down on myself (I have a very intellectual side that tortures me for not studying right now) for not having a degree and not even knowing which degree to pursue…or even if I am meant to pursue one!
Has anyone been in this situation before? Please help! Any advice would be greatly appreciated Thanks so much in advance. Love and blessings to all!