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I used to pray the Rosary every day. Then, about 2 months ago, I became really busy and stopped for about 1 1/2 weeks. After that, I would say it every so often. But when I did, I had so much on my mind (and -as bad as this sounds- wanted to finish as quickly as possible), that I pretty much just rushed through the words. Not meditating on the Mysteries or anything. For the past month, I've been trying to say it every day (I feel really guilty if I skip a day, for some reason). But sometimes I still just speed through the words. And my mind is elsewhere, pretty much every day.
I don't know what to do. I've been feeling really guilty that I haven't been praying with my whole heart. I also have this little part of me that starts thinking things like, "What's the point? Especially if I'm just gonna rush through it anyway. There's really no reason why I have to do this every day, is there? What good is this really doing anyone?"
Have any of you been in the position where you couldn't focus when praying? What helped you?
Firstly, I'm happy that you've been saying it every day! It's really a hard prayer to get through. So congrats on that, you're halfway there.
Let's address the thoughts you've been having first, like "What's the point, especially if I'm just gonna rush through it anyway?" and similar. These sorts of thoughts are the ones you want to ignore. They don't come from God - Jesus commanded us to pray, after all.
And now to focussing: I'm a young Catholic but even for those more experienced, it can be difficult. I've come to the conclusion that prayer, for most of us ordinary Catholics, is a struggle. Sometimes you might find yourself able to maintain a sustained attention for a long time, other times you'll hardly be able to recollect yourself for half a minute.
Take distractions as an opportunity to humble yourself before God. He's really sending you a gift and trying to make you see that you can't depend upon yourself and your dispositions to make a good prayer, and that you have to turn to Him for help. He's pushing you in the direction of humility and true love of God by making you deny yourself and keep going when you don't feel like it. It's a suffering and a humiliation - it's downright painful sometimes - but it's designed to get you further in your spiritual development.
If you aren't paying attention to the words of the Rosary because you just can't, try simply to focus on the presence of God and ask for help from Our Lady. It's the perseverance that counts the most. Prayer - and the entirety of the spiritual life - is not based on feeling the words.
And in the meantime, don't give up! Our Lord will reward your efforts.