Lately, I’ve found myself worrying about the future almost constantly. I’m in my last year of university and I’m trying to decide what to do afterwards. I’m also worried I’ll make a mistake and not properly discern what path God wants me to take. I have some acquaintances and friends going to graduate school, med school, etc, and that is great, but I’m worried I won’t get in anywhere, and sometimes I catch myself comparing myself to them and I get discouraged. Sometimes I feel like I’ve failed at life already, because I’m so afraid that I will…I feel like there’s so much pressure on me to succeed from my family, society, etc. But at the same time, I KNOW what’s important is doing God’s will first, and that this is enough… that I should just try my best and leave the results up to Him. And that I should have my own goals not just copy those of others. We shouldn’t focus so much on worldly success anyways, just seek to build God’s Kingdom with whatever talents and gifts Our Lord gave us.
Does anyone have any advice on how to not worry constantly about the future when it’s really uncertain and how to keep on trusting God when you’re confused? Could you please also - if you can - pray for me because I’m really struggling I’d appreciate that so much. I also don’t know how to deal with the pressure - I feel like there’s such a pressure on me to be successful ‘in the world’ and to choose a career JUST because it is prestigious - when really, I know that’s not the most important thing and not at all the reason we should choose a career… I don’t want to feel sad about my choice if it’s actually God’s will for me. But I feel like this is really affecting me and messing up my priorities.
also sometimes I feel so much regret that I didnt always get the best grades and there were courses I struggled with and barely passed. I’ve always been good at languages, english, history, etc, but not so much math, chemistry… Maybe this is just pride…but sometimes I really feel this way, and I can’t do anything about it, cause it’s in the past now.
why can’t I just care about what God wants? why do I sometimes feel jealous of others because of their success in the world? sinning in this way makes me so sad why can’t I just rejoice with those who rejoice, like it says in the Bible? there’s so much in me that needs to be sorted out… I used to never feel jealous of anyone until I began to pay attention to all this pressure to ‘succeed’. I know there’s nothing wrong with wanting to get good grades, getting a good job, etc, but only if for the right reasons and only if it’s not a distraction…
my worry is a big distraction… could you please pray that God would point me in the right direction?