I’m having problems with the 6th commandment. I’m 20 and I try to do my best, but it’s so difficult to keep your mind clear in this world:
I watch a show on Netflix, and here we go, not even 30 mins in, the main chars start to banging
I go on Youtube to listen a cover of my fav songs and the singer isn’t wearing much
I visit grandma for lunch and again, woman not wearing much is on a cover
I go to a mall and there’s a billboard inviting you to erotic club
I try to listen to my first narrated story podcast and here we go again, mom threatening some guy she will make sure her daughter won’t sleep with him again if he doesn’t help the mom with some stuff
I like a song, so want to check out more from the band and the very first song I stumble upon begins something like … I want to feel your body on mine
I meet classmates from High School after 6 months and he starts talking about how he banged some girl
I read a detective/crime novel and there’s a guy threatening women to sleep with him or she will lose the custody of her son
I’m just fed up with this. Almost no matter how I try to avoid anything that would tempt me to do the stupid stuff guys do alone… it always appears somewhere.
I’m incredibly angry at myself every time I do it, every time I say that this was the last freaking time, but it never is.
My question is, should I just go on a hike, find some cave and start living there? Seriously, I don’t see any other option how to avoid the temptation. I got to the point that I don’t want to watch movies, tv series, anything because there’s always something… Even when some girl just casually mentions she slept with a guy, on one side I can’t handle the thought and feel sorry for her, on the other it somehow leads me to thinking about that stuff.
Is is even possible to live a normal life (watching TV, going to the mall, listening to music, etc) without falling into sin? Even if I manage to somehow hold myself together for a few days/weeks, I always give in.
If someone wanted to, please don’t recommend trying to find a girl, I have so much work & uncertainty in my life right now that it would be the most stupid thing I could possibly do.
I want to get married as soon as I finally “make it” in my career, but until then I want to stay clean of all of this. I hate the thought I will marry one day (hopefully) and yet I’m doing all of the stupid stuff over and over and over.