we’ve gone out on a limb again. you’d think with all the unconventiuonal stuff we do, we’d be used to it. still, it’s scary.
here’s my story:
this year, in order to get my husband out of his job in hell (22 years in the steel mill: screaming loud, broiling hot, filthy, dangerous, demoralizing AND weekly swing shift) i took another job as DRE in a second parish. so husband left the mill and had a wonderful year staying home with the kids, homeschooling, doing all the stuff i usually do. (some things he did a lot better.)
financially, it was a very terrible year. on paper, we didn’t make it. on paper, we lost the house, starved to death, died of influenza. but God isn’t on paper. HE’s everywhere else, including in the little miracles. that’s what we lived on this year-- grace and miracles, like daily manna in the desert. we lived on THIS day our daily bread. and counted on God again every day new. (sometimes, things seemed urgent and… i’m sorry to confess, i got ugly. …*** forgive us our trespasses.!!!..***.)
well, one of the churches i work for offered me full time. if i fenagled the schedules good, i could keep both jobs and make decent money. it would be the FIRST time in 22 years of marriage we could pay the bills every month. what would that be like…?
but i just let go the part time DRE job and kept the full time DRE job.
i need to be home more with my kids.
i’m going to miss the other job, all the catechists, all the beautiful children, the joy of the program etc., but i need to be home more with my kids. i can’t be away 50 hours a week.
the bitter little pill: the fulltime position will not pay the bills (which are already BARE BONES, no extras) but i need to be home with my kids more.
i know this seems so nuts. i know this doesnt make any conventional/ financial/ real-world sense. but as much as i’ve fenagled schedules and responsibilities these past few months, i never have ANY peace when i think, “maybe there’s a way to keep both jobs…” the only time i have peace-- that weird peace that surpasses ALL understanding-- is when i accept, “OK Lord. I let the second job go…”
so, i’m not asking God to tell me the future of this. we are in the “Stay Tuned…” mode. Trusting HIM is my only business. my future is HIS business.
but my question for you all is this: ***when you prayerfully went out on a limb, how’d it turn out?
what’s your story?***