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I’m having trouble lately and I’m hoping you wonderful people might have some helpful tips for me. I know we are to be humble and kind and merciful always…I have a special devotion to Jesus in the Divine Mercy…and yet, I find myself not exemplifying those qualities at all. I look at people around me – friends, relatives, acquaintances – and get upset because of things they do that go against what I know is The Truth (what is taught by the Church). From small things to big ones, I struggle with not looking down on others. It’s not because I’m so great (obviously I’m a huge sinner, who isn’t?) it’s just that I see the rejection of truth and it bothers me so much!
I especially have a hard time not judging people who I know have had abortions (no one extremely close to me, thankfully). I know I should pray for them and that I should forgive them (is it even my place to need to forgive them? I don’t think so, but you probably know what I’m feeling) – but I just can’t. It disgusts me and upsets me so much that I don’t know how I can let it go.
The bottom line is that I know what I should do, what I need to do, how I should conduct myself. The problem is that I don’t know how to actually do it. Instead of being merciful, I find myself being judgmental. I’m sure this upsets God, and I try not to think that way about others, but it’s tough. I know it’s by God’s mercy that I am blessed to know the truth, and then I turn around and instead of being what I should be I’m the opposite.
How do you put humility and mercy into action?