we are not married in the catholic church (he and my children are catholic and I am christian, but not catholic), but we are legally and to me, that was supposed to be forever (legally and religiously to me). He told me he would never be a man to get a divorce and abandon his wife and kids, but that's what he's doing. I have sacrificed for 10 years for him - moving from place to place for his work and finally moving accross country so he could have his dream of owning a business. Well, after 2.5 years of my hard work (and his laziness), he has decided to sell the business, give me a chunk of the money and leave back for his home (which is not here in the U.S) - he already has a buyer who said he was paying him tonight a downpayment and he was signing the papers (the biz is in his name so it doesn't matter what i want).
He says he doesn't care about me or the family we have here and that it's over. He said maybe he will come back to see the kids every 5 years or so for a visit. How nice of him. Now I have family I can go and live with and i will need their help because I will have to use all that money towards getting some sort of degree I can give two innocent kids a good life on, and i can't do that on what i have now education wise. I know that I can move on and get married again, but personally I don't trust men right now, I will have two kids to raise basically on my own and when I said I do, I meant forever like he promised me. I know he's a jerk and not worth it, but I can't get over it and I don't know how I feel - I want to punch something and cry all at the same time - I have been fighting back the tears for a few hours now. i can't believe how little he cares - which is zero. And I don't get why some part of me is hoping these buyers tell him they went with some other business or that they just don't show up. I don't want my life to change and I'm madder than hell at him. What do I do?