I've posted this on another board full of Trads and I've gotten some good posts saying they will pray for me but I've also gotten the "convert no matter what" posts.
Here's the situation my husband was raised Episcopalian and then went off to college to become a worldly fella with drugs etc. Fast forward around 5 years and he met me, I was a non practicing Baptist and we started to look for a church together, we attended a Catholic church almost went to RCIA but the Marian stuff drove us both nuts. (one of those I could kick myself!-later) We checked out Episcopalian churches-too liberal, baptist-spent some time there we both were baptized (me first time him second time-he was baptized as a baby) we checked out the fundy indy baptists, bible churchers, mennonites, and then ran into a fella that believed and introduced us to the early church fathers. He's my husband's best friend an staunch Cont. Anglican and my girls godfather. He's a big driving force in my husband's beliefs.
We started to attend Cont. Anglican Churches where are daughters were both baptized and that is where we are now. He's an altar server (acolyte a grown up altar boy really) and has mentioned that he would like to become a priest at some point. Problem is I've read the early church too and I recognize St. Peter's supremacy and the Catholic Church as THE CHURCH. I have tried several times to convert, it always ends the same. He yells, argues, attacks the church and me for being rebellious and dividing our house etc and has told me in no uncertain terms that he would divorce me if I convert-so I give in and quietly attend church with him. He allows me to watch EWTN and pray the rosary (he mocks EWTN but can't say much about the rosary since we belong to an Anglo-catholic parish). He CAN'T STAND the Catholic Church he belittles it every chance he gets. I feel like bawling every time we pass a Catholic Church on our way to this Anglo-catholic one. :(
I feel like I'm trapped I'm freaking out inside wanting to go to church and convert but I can't and I'm trying hard not to feel resentment towards him over this. Funny thing that gets me is he will say that the Catholic Church is a valid church with valid sacraments and we are all part of the church but will divorce me if I dare convert to it!!! I'm just frustrated and upset over the whole thing. I do have my 6 yr. old daughter praying the rosary with me everyday while I secretly pray for my husband's conversion or at least a softening of heart so I can convert. Please help!!! Please pray for my family! I've been praying the rosary, divine mercy chaplet, prayers to St.s Rita and Monica I need all the help I can get.