Hello everyone, I hope you all are having a blessed Lenten season so far. Holy week is just around the corner and I should be excited. I am going to be baptized this Easter. I received God’s call to faith when my Grandma died last October. I have been eager the whole RCIA process but now all of a sudden I am stricken by this surreal doubt. It is scary really. I went into this process with the mind set that all religions are true. However slowly the classes taught me so much about the Church and became convinced that this was the true faith. I know that it is in my mind but something is prodding me. I think that previous mind set it sprouting back up and causing me to doubt if this is the real true religion.
I never took much thought to the existence of satan or his temptations. I always thought that all the sins I committed were my own fault not the cause of satans prodding. I know satan is attacking my faith now. I ask that by the intercession of St. Michael the Archangel satan may be cast into the depths of hell never to destroy mans faith again.
I need prayers, I have never asked for prayers ever in my life. I never thought I would need prayers from other people. I do now, oh me of little faith. Everyone please pray that I become like the Apostle Thomas who after touching the Lords wounds proclaimed that he was his God. I need to overcome this doubt more than I need oxygen in my lungs. I truly love Jesus he is my rod and staff I find comfort in his arms. I need my rod and staff back.
I find it appropriate to call upon saints Thomas, Augustine, Joseph, Francis of Assisi, Thomas More, and the Blessed Virgin Mary. Along with all the angels and saints in heaven.
Thank you all this means so much for me, I am so stricken with doubt I can’t even pray for myself whatever will I do?
Peace and Blessings to you all
Rhuarc (currently a doubting Thomas)