what a grace to be able to prayers prayers of deep love without any expectation of reciprocation! what a GRACE to be able to pray for conversion for another-- even if it is in his last breath-- whether of not you know about it in this life. what a grace to be able to pray for another's conversion even if you never enjoy the fruits of the other's conversion in this life! to be able to pray for another's salvation FIRST because that soul belongs to God and it pleases God that it should be saved. and only then, NEXT because it would be good for the soul itself-- and NOT because it would make you happy, or make your life complete or any other personal consolation! .
the saints have called this disinterested prayer.
what a great grace to love a soul who refuses love and who will not reciprocate. in this, we learn something about God the Father, who loves eternally, even souls who refuse to be loved. even souls who will never reciprocate.
i have expereinced similar moments in praying for someone in my life. someone who i beg God, that at least, his last moments are of repentance and begging God's mercy, whether i know about it or not. whether i am consoled by the knowledge of his conversion or not. i beg God that his soul is saved because it pleases God Himself that his soul should be saved.
what does it mean? it means keep praying. never stop praying. the devil wants one thing-- for you to stop praying. God wants one thing-- for you to never stop praying for the guy.
do what God wants.