So my parents are planning a trip to the lake that will take up the entire weekend. There is no chance of getting to mass on Sunday or Saturday evening and I can’t get out of the trip.
I understand that if it is impossible, then no sin is committed. But I am worried. I guess I can sometimes tend towards scrupulous…and I worry about things, like not trying hard enough, for instance. The closest Catholic church to the lake is 30 miles away. This is so far that my parents wouldn’t drive me if we were sitting at home with nothing to do. Not only will everyone be busy swimming and waterskiing and watching kids, but even just the effort required to get to the shore of the lake once we are situated is extraordinary. I know there is not the slightest chance that anyone will take me there, and if I ask they will laugh at me and mock me and ask me what other special Catholic privileges I request. If I go ahead and just go and don’t ask for that sort of thing…does that make it any worse?
Also, I understand there is still an “obligation” to spend plenty of time in prayer and meditation. I will try to, but in my past experience with these lake trips - well, it’s at least 11 of us crammed into a small houseboat, almost no privacy and certainly no quiet, and in addition we are often constantly on the go. The last time I went to the lake was a time when I was letting scrupulosity run my life, trying to force myself into an hour of prayer a day lest I was going to sin and die, and even under that sort of pressure I found it difficult to scrape up 10-15 minutes. I’m going to bring my Bible so maybe I can find some time to lock myself in the bathroom and read a bit…but it is honestly so noisy and crowded and busy, I don’t know what I I’m going to do.
I guess…any advice?