I am in deep mental and spiritual anguish and i desperately need help

I do not know where to start, but i will do the best i can to the best of my ability.

I was born and raised in a protestant household, but i was still baptized into the Catholic Church as an infant at the request of my Catholic side of the family. all my life up until i was 18 i have felt completely distanced from God without any form of connection. It was not until my family joined a pentacostal church that i began to take my faith seriously. Jumping around, dancing like a complete lunatic, It felt like i was truly justified in the sight of God, and that he was hoveeing over me and taking care of me. Eventually as i was growing my “faith” i eventually ended up going down the rabbit hole of discovering the church fathers and church history, which was completely devastating for me because it had completely anhillalated my whole foundation of belief in which gave me “fullfilment” and peace of mind. It is at this point that i almost regret discovering church history, because ever since discovering them i have not had an emotional sense of “fullfilment” or “peace” that i did under the false delusions of pentacostalism, and wish that i was still in the “matrix” sort of speak. I have been attending a Catholic parish for nearly 2 years. I feel as though despite everything, i do not have a firm foundation of faith . I pray the rosary almost daily and am on the 24th day of St. Louis De Monfort’s 33 consecration to the Blessed Virgin Mary, but i feel as though these things decinigrate right before my eyes and that everything that i do is meaningless. Even before coming to catholicism, since i was 14 or so, i have been suffering to this day from depression, suicidal tendencies, etc, on an up and down basis, on top of a massive porn addiction that is still occuring.

Another separate event is also adding to my current turmoil as well,

I met a woman at a different parish in which i immedietly developed interest towards her. I got to know here quite a bit on the basic level while still having an attraction towards her, enough to the point were i believed that she would be good wife material and would have constant fantasies about being with her. I did not attend her parish often because i had higher obligations to my own. Then one day, the worst thing happened to me. She ended up in a relationship with someone else. So there it is; the person who was perfect for me, the one who would have had completed me on this journey through life, ended up being with someone else. And i immediately figured that this was complete wrath from God that she was given to someone else because, even though i was originally meant to be her man, was given to someone else more virtuous than me because i have sinned and failed to fullfil my obligations of purity, and therefore was not good enough and had her go elswhere by the hand of God against me. My parish is very far away from where i live and the only people i have access to for personal issues are my past pentacostal contacts, in which they tell me that “God has a plan for me and another spouse for me”, in which i think this is completely delusional and relies on false, sinful hope and imagination.

I need help.

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Saint Michael, the archangel, defend us in battle, be our defense against the wickedness and snares of the devil, may God rebuke him, we humbly pray. And do you, O’ Prince of the Heavenly host, by the power of God thrust into Hell Satan and all the other evil spirits who prowl about the world for the ruin of souls.

Amen.

Our Father who art in Heaven, hallowed be thy name.

Thy kingdom come, thy will be done on Earth as it is in Heaven.

Give us this day our daily bread.

And forgive us our trespasses, as we forgive those who trespass against us.

And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil.

Amen.

Hail Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with thee.

Blessed are you among women, and blessed is the fruit of your womb Jesus.

Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners, now and at the hour of our death.

Amen.

Prayer to Our Lady of Mental Peace

O Lady of Mental Peace,

Mother of Tranquility

and Mother of Hope,

look upon jkobs1 in this time

of weakness and unrest.

Teach her searching heart

to know that God’s Love

for her is unchanging and

unchangeable, and, that

true human love can only

begin and grow by touching

His Love.

Let your gentle Peace -

which this world cannot give

  • be always with her.

And, help her to bring this

same Peace into the lives

of others.

Our Lady of Mental Peace,

  • Pray for us!

Amen.

Jesus, Help Me!

In every need let me come to You with humble trust,

saying:

Jesus, help me!

In all my doubts, perplexities, and temptations:

Jesus, help me!

In hours of loneliness, weariness and trials:

Jesus, help me!

In the failure of my plans and hopes, in disappointments,

troubles and sorrows:

Jesus, help me!

When others fail me, and Your Grace alone can assist me:

Jesus, help me!

When I throw myself on Your tender Love as Savior:

Jesus, help me!

When my heart is cast down by failure, at seeing no good

come from my efforts:

Jesus, help me!

When I feel impatient, and my cross irritates me:

Jesus, help me!

When I am ill, and my head and hands cannot work and

I am lonely:

Jesus, help me!

Always, always, in spite of weakness, falls and short-

comings of every kind:

Most Sacred Heart of Jesus, help me and never forsake me!

Amen

Hail Mary,
Full of Grace,
The Lord is with thee.
Blessed art thou among women,
and blessed is the fruit
of thy womb, Jesus.
Holy Mary,
Mother of God,
pray for us sinners now,
and at the hour of our death.

Amen.

Hail Mary, full of grace. The Lord is with thee. Blessed art thou among women and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus. Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners, now, and at the hour of our death.
Amen.

O Blood and Water, which gushed forth from the Heart of Jesus as a fountain of Mercy for us, I trust in You!

Our Father, Who art in heaven, hallowed be Thy name; Thy kingdom come; Thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven. Give us this day our daily bread; and forgive us our trespasses as we forgive those who trespass against us; and lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil, Amen.

Hail Mary, full of grace. The Lord is with thee. Blessed art thou amongst women, and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus. Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners, now and at the hour of our death, Amen.

Eternal Father, I offer you the Body and Blood, Soul and Divinity of Your Dearly Beloved Son, Our Lord, Jesus Christ, in atonement for our sins and those of the whole world.

For the sake of His sorrowful Passion, have mercy on us and on the whole world. x10

Holy God, Holy Mighty One, Holy Immortal One, have mercy on us and on the whole world.


LORD Jesus please help your son in discover the real catholic values. Help me get rid of the thoughts which lead him to end his life and porn addiction. Let him get a wife who would let him grow spiritually.

jkobs1, I am in prayer for you. You have deep fortitude to continue pursuing our Lord through the Church. Keep taking steps towards the Merciful Christ. He loves you.

Are you currently seeking counseling or therapy for your depression, suicidal tendencies, addiction, etc.?

Hail Mary, full of Grace,
the Lord is with thee.
Blessed art thou among women,
and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus.
Holy Mary, Mother of God,
pray for us sinners,
now and at the hour of our death.
Amen.

Welcome back to CAF, @jkobs1! Although you have posted on the Prayer Intentions Forum, where we are to limit our posts to offer prayers for others, please feel free to post issues you’d like to discuss under one of the other Forum topics. :innocent:

Dear Jesus, please help jkobs1 to maintain his trust in You and to persevere in the faith which You, and Only You, handed down to us, your faithful servants. Help kjobs1 to understand that when one door closes, another opens at a time determined by You. Help him to persevere in Our Faith and abide in Your Love as the course of his life is determined as he moves into the more stable years of maturity. Help him to avoid becoming mired down in life’s little disappointments. Help him to get through each day and night doing what he needs to do to prepare for the livelihood of his adult years; help him turn to You throughout each day. Help him to find time to chart his future spiritual life with a good priest, and to find time to talk to you each day. Please let him experience the joy of Adoration of Your Sacred Heart and frequent reception of Your Body and Blood. Let him find joy in loving You and serving You as his life unfolds, and let him know hope! In Your Name do we ask these special blessings for Your servant, jkobs1.

Blessed be God. Blessed be His Holy Name.

Glory be to the Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Spirit, as it was in the beginning, is now, and ever shall be, world without end. Amen.

Father please bless and heal this young man. May he be guided by your hand and through others to see to live a good life in Christ. May he walk strong in your faith and meet a person one day that will honor him and love him to build a strong family in Christ. In your name, Jesus amen!

I pray that the Lord resolves your situation and that He saves you from your pornography addiction. Amen.

Our Lady of Mental Peace, please intercede.

O Blood and Water, which gushed forth from the Heart of Jesus as a fountain of Mercy for us, I trust in You!

Our Father, Who art in heaven, hallowed be Thy name; Thy kingdom come; Thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven. Give us this day our daily bread; and forgive us our trespasses as we forgive those who trespass against us; and lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil, Amen.

Hail Mary, full of grace. The Lord is with thee. Blessed art thou amongst women, and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus. Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners, now and at the hour of our death, Amen.

Eternal Father, I offer you the Body and Blood, Soul and Divinity of Your Dearly Beloved Son, Our Lord, Jesus Christ, in atonement for our sins and those of the whole world.

For the sake of His sorrowful Passion, have mercy on us and on the whole world. x10

Holy God, Holy Mighty One, Holy Immortal One, have mercy on us and on the whole world.


11-9-20 jkobs1: Needs help with life

Welcome back to CAF, @jkobs1! Although you have posted on the Prayer Intentions Forum, where we are to limit our posts to offer prayers for others, please feel free to post issues you’d like to discuss under one of the other Forum topics. :innocent:

Dear Jesus, please help jkobs1 to maintain his trust in You and to persevere in the faith which You, and Only You, handed down to us, your faithful servants. Help kjobs1 to understand that when one door closes, another opens at a time determined by You. Help him to persevere in Our Faith and abide in Your Love as the course of his life is determined as he moves into the more stable years of maturity. Help him to avoid becoming mired down in life’s little disappointments. Help him to get through each day and night doing what he needs to do to prepare for the livelihood of his adult years; help him turn to You throughout each day. Help him to find time to chart his future spiritual life with a good priest, and to find time to talk to you each day. Please let him experience the joy of Adoration of Your Sacred Heart and frequent reception of Your Body and Blood. Let him find joy in loving You and serving You as his life unfolds, and let him know hope! In Your Name do we ask these special blessings for Your servant, jkobs1. Amen.

Blessed be God. Blessed be His Holy Name.

Glory be to the Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Spirit, as it was in the beginning, is now, and ever shall be, world without end. Amen.

St. Anthony of Padua, helper in all necessities, please pray for @jkobs1 in this time of stress.

Hail Mary, full of grace. The Lord is with thee.
Blessed art thou among women and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus. Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners, now, and at the hour of our death. Amen.

11-9-20 jkobs1: Needs help with life

Welcome back to CAF, @jkobs1! Although you have posted on the Prayer Intentions Forum, where we are to limit our posts to offer prayers for others, please feel free to post issues you’d like to discuss under one of the other Forum topics.

There is no set time for prayer. Pray what is in your heart and on your mind. Talk to the Holy Trinity in prayer, whether a prayer used by others or a prayer of your own words. Do not worry if you fall asleep or for some other reason are unable to finish a prayer.:innocent:

Dear Jesus, please help jkobs1 to maintain his trust in You and to persevere in the faith which You, and Only You, handed down to us, your faithful servants. Help kjobs1 to understand that when one door closes, another opens at a time determined by You. Help him to persevere in Our Faith and abide in Your Love as the course of his life is determined as he moves into the more stable years of maturity. Help him to avoid becoming mired down in life’s little disappointments. Help him to get through each day and night doing what he needs to do to prepare for the livelihood of his adult years; help him turn to You throughout each day. Help him to find time to chart his future spiritual life with a good priest, and to find time to talk to you each day. Please let him experience the joy of Adoration of Your Sacred Heart and frequent reception of Your Body and Blood. Let him find joy in loving You and serving You as his life unfolds, and let him know hope! In Your Name do we ask these special blessings for Your servant, jkobs1. Amen.

Blessed be God. Blessed be His Holy Name.

Glory be to the Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Spirit, as it was in the beginning, is now, and ever shall be, world without end. Amen.

O Blood and Water, which gushed forth from the Heart of Jesus as a fountain of Mercy for us, I trust in You!

Our Father, Who art in heaven, hallowed be Thy name; Thy kingdom come; Thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven. Give us this day our daily bread; and forgive us our trespasses as we forgive those who trespass against us; and lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil, Amen.

Hail Mary, full of grace. The Lord is with thee. Blessed art thou amongst women, and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus. Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners, now and at the hour of our death, Amen.

Eternal Father, I offer you the Body and Blood, Soul and Divinity of Your Dearly Beloved Son, Our Lord, Jesus Christ, in atonement for our sins and those of the whole world.

For the sake of His sorrowful Passion, have mercy on us and on the whole world. x10

Holy God, Holy Mighty One, Holy Immortal One, have mercy on us and on the whole world.


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