I’ve gotten to a point where receiving communion is the highlight of my week. Literally, nothing else compares because I don’t do anything else but work and basically sit at home because of my hours (I work from 3pm to 11), including weekends. This is good because I can attend morning masses, so I can’t complain about that, but it also means that I can’t make it to confession in my parish (because confessions are heard at 3:30 on saturdays when I work). It also means I can’t make it to confession at the local shrine because they hear it from 1 to 4, and I have to leave at 2, and it’s kind of out of the way, and etc. etc.
Long story short, I’ve been asking the priest after mass on sunday every week, and I’ve been going every week, but that’s the problem, it’s after mass. Which means I always end up having to wait a whole other week before I could even receive communion again. And since I’m sure I’m not alone in saying that I fall into mortal sin on a weekly basis, sometimes a daily basis, I usually have to skip communion once again the following week and go to confession instead, and then wait another week…etc. etc. and the cycle repeats week after week. I don’t even remember the last time I was in a church and worthy to receive communion.
Another thing is, I enjoy very much going to daily mass, but my parish has it only on thursdays and fridays. Because of my work schedule, I often attend, and they even do adoration after mass on thursdays, so I’m blessed with that as well… BUT I can’t seem to go three days from sunday to thursday without falling back into mortal sin, so that means I often can’t even receive communion on the closest day after the sunday I receive absolution. I can’t bug the priest after mass on thursdays because they’re doing adoration at that time. I can’t bug the priest on fridays either because they shut the place down, so I’m always left to waiting for sunday, because sunday is when the priest is actually there after mass… and when I call to make an appointment, the parish tells me to see him after mass on sundays anyways, which is what I’m already doing.
So I don’t know what to do… I find the whole thing humorous and perplexing. I know ultimately it’s my fault because it’s my sin that’s snagging me every week, but I would like to receive communion because I believe it would help.