[quote=Magicsilence]Maybe im just in denial but i dont think i do suffer from such a disorder. I do want to make sure that i am doing everything i should be doing as a faithful Catholic.
And to Della, we have never as a family gone to mass on this day before, hence my confusion. It was a massive combination of factors, but yes, i will confess it on Saturday.
Um, if i do have an illness, thats really sad, I thought I was supposed to be the one that didnt get ill, . Lol, no, i don’t suffer from it, I’m just rechecking the tenets of my faith.
Unless I am scrupulous and dont realize it.
I used to feel guilty about playing cards instead of praying. Now (after my general confession on Monday, after which God abandoned me for one whole day !!! Trust me, it was horrible.) I dont feel so guilty, and maybe my zeal for the faith has diminished a fair bit. But I’m a lot happier, have less doubts about burning in hell than i used to etc…
Um, ok, this post is rambling.
I have to apologize for the terseness in my last post to you—mea culpa!
But I do have some concerns, based on this and previous posts, that you might be at least inclined to scrupulosity. At the very least, you seem a little overly concerned at times with the idea of mortal sin—remember, you can’t “accidentally” commit mortal sin.
I’d recommend a book called “The Fire Within” by Fr. Dubay (sp?). It doesn’t have anything to do with scrupulosity, but instead is about contemplative prayer (St. Theresa of Avila and St. John of the Cross being the guides). I mention this book because it shows the joys of a deepening communion with God—which might be a good antidote to a tendency to scrupulosity.