I feel so lonely in the church. Most of my parish are older people and the few younger ones have young children. I don’t have kids yet. I’m different than the people I go to church with. I watch anime and scary movies, go to comicon and metal concerts.
The church where I live is small and everyone who goes there knows each other and have grown up there. People don’t make an effort to know me or talk to me other than saying hi. I’m shy and have some social anxiety so its hard for me to be the one to initiate conversation. And even if I wanted to there isn’t an opportunity. After church people go say hi to their long time buddies and then leave. Even before covid there was no Bible studies or anything other than men’s groups and the altar society. Well I’m a woman and I don’t have a washer and dryer and wouldn’t want to take linens and stuff to a laundromat. Our church is half Spanish speaking with a separate mass and they have a woman’s group but I don’t speak Spanish or fit in there either.
I thought church was supposed to be a community, but I feel so alone. I am a convert and miss going to a church where I wasn’t an outcast. I miss Bible studies and learning all the time. Our church has catfish dinners and things sometimes but everyone just talks and sits with their friends making things awkward and lonely.
I don’t know what to do. I’ve been thinking of just going to a protestant church to feel not so alone.
Edit: let me clarify, I’m not looking for friends during mass. Mass is wonderful on its own. I’m talking about a lack of the community aspect that supports each other as the body of Christ. When I was protestant we had Bible studies and other little things that the community did together. People were welcoming and tried to include me in things. I’ve been to several catholic churches and am missing having a community.
I don’t plan on leaving Jesus’s Church. I just have 0 Christian or catholic people in my life other than my spouse who I see a few times a week due to his job. I want to be able to celebrate a catholic life with people. I want their wisdom and whatnot. My whole life is so secular and all I want is to replace some secular things with church things and have people who want to do that too.