I am a former protestant, I decided to convert to Catholic Church back in 2012, then officially became one this year.
When my family figured it out what I’ve done (like getting confirmed) they were very furious.
My catholic stuffs were being trashed away…
I was being told to forget about everything Catholic… never contact to (catholic)people, never sneak out to Church, never buy catholic stuffs…don’t even think about it forever.
They told me that I was lured by the Devil… really…wow…
I also felt that last year, God was calling me to become a religious … I was keep praying and praying; even asked for a sign–send a little bird to me. I was keep looking for it, but birds are everywhere! lol I forgot about it one day…
On the Annunciation day, this year, God really sent me a little bird while I was meditating in my home parish… little bird stayed until the Gospel reading and flew away. It was sitting near the Crucifix on the Altar. So it’s the sign! God wants me to be a nun—I want to be a Carmelite, a cloistered one.
But look at me… like I mentioned earlier, I cannot practice my faith in my household.
It’s literally killing me. I haven’t gone to Mass almost month and half. And it seems so impossible. What do you want from me, God? Oh, what a heavy Cross You gave me, Lord.
I can’t go out freely and visit Monastery… or phone call the sisters. Hard to understand, right?
But either as a religious, singleness, or marriage, I am open to God’s Will… just want to live my life as a dedicated Catholic…
Please pray for me, dear brothers and sisters.
You see, I’m not obviously giving it up. I may seem surrendered; obeying my parents because God told us to, but I am not going to abandon my Catholic faith. It’s very hard. I don’t even know what is gonna happen to me because of that. But I am hoping and praying that one day God will deliver me to live as a Catholic or as a Carmelite.
Thank you very much for reading my story. God bless +++