I don’t know who else to turn to…but I still need prayers and lots of them for myself and my husband. I know I have asked over and over, but our situation never gets better, only worse.
I am a mess physically, psychologically, and spiritually. I am sad all the time and just want to die due to illness and loneliness (as my husband has to work so much) and infertility. I want a baby so bad, my heart aches so much I feel like it might burst. The pain in my body is great and seems like it just gets worse. But the doctors can’t find anything new wrong. I can’t get out of the house much otherwise I get sick. My family lives eight hours away. I have no friends. I feel trapped and imprisonated. And I feel SO far from God. I thank God for my husband, but wish I could see him more.
My husband is struggling SO hard just to make ends meet. His boss keeps putting more and more on him. He can’t get a second job with all of this, and it makes me sick to think he’ll be gone even more when he does. But it is absolutely necessary. We are really pinching pennies. Because of all of this, my husband is so emotionally and physically drained, though medically healthy. I feel like its all my fault. I worry about him getting sick and dying from all the stress.