Okay, so let me start with this. I'm a 24 year old guy and live in a somewhat rural area, though i'm close enough to larger cities for excitement (about an hour). Anyway, last night i went on a date with a girl I met on Catholic match. While she was an awesome girl, i find myself not really interested and I don't know why. In fact i'm not really interested in anyone. I'm talking to a few other girls kind of testing the waters (no dates yet since one of them is from farther away), but i'm not really strongly pulled towards anyone.
I also feel like my desire to be married has kind of gone away. While i do not like being single, I accept that it might be an option, and i don't feel as sad about being alone (a little down yes, but I go on with life). I know part of it is that i used to feel a lot of pressure to get married (a few of my Catholic friends are already married, and are a year or 2 younger than me), but it's also simply a little bit of depression. I'll admit i''m more of a melancholic person, but to be honest, I find myself wanting to focus more on other things. I want to reconnect with some of my old friends, I want to find a better job (right now I substitute teach and work at a grocery store, so a job with more pay and benefits would be great especially since Student loans are a pain :(:ouch:) I also want to focus on some opportunities this summer since I plan on either teaching Totus Tuus in a neighboring diocese or entering a Masters program where i'd actually get to teach in a Catholic school while getting my degree (for nearly no cost :extrahappy:)
So does this mean i'm not called to marriage? I don't want to be a priest, that i'm sure, and I don't want to join a religious order, but I'm starting to feel like being a lay minister or evangelist would be something i'd love and be good at (I like Church history, and theology is something that I'd love to get into). Granted I'd need to get a lot better prayer life (my biggest struggle, really now all i do is weekly confession,and Mass, i don't pray nearly enough). I just feel like i'd rather focus on me.