My reasons for wanting to be a priest are as follows:
- I want to share messages about how to live a good life and glorify God through living virtuously.
- I want to serve my community and help people find comfort in the presence of God
- I want to be closer to God
- God is calling me to be more than just a Sunday Catholic
- I want to help people. I want to help people be closer to God, and I want to help people get into Heaven.
- I want to use my love of music to expand music ministries in the parishes I serve.
- Though I want to marry, I doubt my desire to have children.
- I want to fulfill God’s plan for my life, assuming that he is in fact calling me to the priesthood.
- No matter how many times I ignore the call, I continue hearing whispers of a call to a religious vocation.
The reasons I am hesitant/don’t feel like it is for me:
- My parents modeled a happy and fulfilling family life, and I want to marry and have a family.
- I am not as overtly religious as my idea of a person who enters the priesthood; I have never been involved in youth group, bible study, mission trips, etc.
- I feel slightly uncomfortable when someone asks me if I’ve heard the word of Jesus Christ. My relationship with God is a quiet and introspective one; while I would be delighted to share that relationship with others as a priest, I have never been one with a passion for spreading the word of God with whoever will listen.
- Though I want to read the bible more, pray more, and pray the rosary more, I do not do it nearly as often as I should.
What should I do? Is the path to the clergy completely wrong for me? Or should I explore it further? My former parish priest says that I am a good Christian man, and that he wants to have coffee with me to discuss my vocation, as he is now the vocational director for my home archdiocese.
Please be respectful and kind in your responses. I have had experiences in other forums where people have been unkind and discouraging in their response to my questions.