Or at this very moment the temptation to despair.
Ive been dealing with an ongoing temptation for a little over a year until just a few weeks ago it really intensified and I crumbled and gave in. I kept asking God to remove thw te.ptation the whole time because I knew sooner or later Id give in and also because Id had been falling a lot due to the tenptations too. The temptations were at work and I dealt with them every day. I felt my will being weakened and I felt mad at God in some way yet I wanted to still do what God wanted, but I let Him down.
I started to feel like a brand new person in Christ, and felt my old selfish self slowly dying. But after this it feels like that new person I was becoming has been lost once again.
In a way I feel relieved that the temptations are now over but knowing more about the faith and even at times feeling Gods presence with me in my life, I feel just that much more horrible for having.mortally sinned this way, because I was not ignorant.
I plan to go to Confession this week, but I feel depressed. Will God love me again even though I hurt Him knowing full well the consequences with multiple chances to escape even during the steps i took toward sin?