i feel like God has abandoned me

Regarding your feelings that God has abandoned you, God will* never *abandon us unless we first abandon Him. Recommend yourself to Blessed Mary and pray your rosary faithfully every day for the help that you need. She will help you. Have 100% confidence in her. God bless you.

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