Sorry, I’m not quite sure where to post this.
I feel so selfish and ashamed. Everything I do, I find it hard not to think of myself, my own comfort, my own reputation, etc.
I was going down this morning for the 40 Days for Life campaign (praying in front of abortion clinics). Nearly the whole way down, I was so worried about my own physical discomfort (it was a pretty far walk), and I just didn’t feel like my heart was in the right place, at all. I mean, I was glad I did it, of course, but I feel like my thoughts are on myself way too much.
It makes me feel really guilty, especially when I think instead of what Christ went through, which is infinitely worse.
I keep being concerned about myself and about what people think of me. It’s hard for me to do something without wanting recognition for it, which I know is bad. I keep being more interested in gratifying my own desires, comfort, etc, which is leading more to laziness.
So how can I try to put more focus on God, and on other people? Any suggestions, and/or prayers would be appreciated.