Well, a couple of weeks ago I poured my heart out to my husband about why I’m so unhappy:
No intimacy for over two decades (he has no interest)
1.No children (he never wanted them and without intimacy how can you have them anyway)
Will not have anything to do with my family, especially my 83 year-old Mom who I love dearly and has always been good to H
I’m lonely – our friends have all drifted away, I think because of my H’s MS.
He won’t let me express any sadness or anxiety, telling me it’s affecting HIM too much
Walks away when I try to talk to him
Has refused marriage counselling many times
He used to be a horrible verbal and emotional abuser and has hit me in the past – I find I can’t trust him.
We’ve been married for over 30 years and I feel I’v e wasted my entire life with the wrong man. But because of his health issues, I have much much guilt about leaving. But one person can’t fix a marriage. I even talked to Dr. Harley who advised separation knowing my H’s health issues.
I feel my own health slipping away too. BY the way, when I tried to talk to H about all the above, he walked away.
I need prayers today.