I know I’m young (24 guy), but so a lot of my friends have serious long term relationships. Many of them are getting married. It’s hard. I just saw an aquantice at mass with her boyfriend. I know they spend all their time together and make each other really happy. I just hate that I’m missing that.
My past five years have been really hard. I’ve struggled with psychosis and alcoholism. I’ve been sober for 5 months and my brain is healing wonderfully. However, seeing all these hookups is rough. I feel like ive missed out. Ithe makes it hard to have faith and hope. It really feels like it’s never going to happen. I have a horrible thought in the back of my head that tells me there will NEVER be a beautiful, holy girl to meet and marry on the horizion.
I’m an INFJ so I struggle with over thinking and self criticism. It sucks. I wish I could be at peace with being single. I just never have been.