I agree with you as well Shin. I think that both you and JReducation have hit on different aspects of the solution.
My summary/take thus far. It is not wrong to feel convicted, but obsessing over ones sins is a deteriment to holiness and is a source of spiritual pride in and of itself. One reason why God allows the devil power on Earth is to humble him and force him to realize that he will always be inferior to Christ and our Blessed Mother, though human and woman, can crush his head just because God allowed her to. God has free will as well to do what he likes when he pleases and we his slaves acknowledge it as good.
**He has brought down the powerful from their thrones and lifted up the lowly. Luke 1:52 **
One should shoot for perfection, realizing that only the Immaculate Conception and Christ, savior of the world, are sinless humans. Others may reach perfect union in Christ, but in God alone is the fullness of perfection. Some saints have a lot more power than others because they have reaced a greater degree of perfection. You notice a lot more intercessory miracles attributed to some saints than others. Yet, Christ is happy even with his smaller saints. St. Rita or St. Vincent de Paul or St. Padre Pio are not worthless because Mary, St. Louis Marie Grignon de Montfort, St. Francis of Assisi, St. Dominic, St. Anthony of Padua, St. Margaret Mary Alacoque, St. Maria Faustina, St. Maximilian Kolbe, Mother Teresa, or St. Gemma Galgani exist.
You see this in St. Faustina’s Diary where she writes Conversation of a Merciful God to a Perfect Soul almost immediately after Conversation of a Merciful God to a Soul Striving for Perfection and previously Suffering Soul, Despairing Soul, Sinful Soul.
Focusing on one’s own imperfections when one is doing one’s absolute best to follow the will of Christ takes away time from serving Christ. We see David with Bathsheba. God killed the son that was conceived. While the son was dying, David did all he could in prayer and mortification to plead to God for mercy. Yet, when the son had died, he went about his business. Peter denied Christ three times and was absent at the Crucifixion despite his numerous public, vocal, heartfelt, and loud declarations of his realization of who Christ was and his love of God. Yet, Christ returned after his Resurrection to ask him to say “I love you” three times to erase his “I do know who you are talking about” three times. Peter fell again in the New Testament even after the Resurrection of Christ. Yet, he is forgiven. ** Upon this Rock, Christ’s Church stands. **
#1789 + Today I saw the glory of God which flows from the image. Many souls are receiving graces, although they do not speak of it openly. Even through it has met up with all sorts of vicissitudes, God is receiving glory because of it; and the efforts of Satan and of evil men are shattered and come to naught. In spite of Satan’s anger, The Divine Mercy will triumph over the whole world and will be worshiped by all souls.
#1790 I have come to know that, in order for God to act in a soul, it must give up acting on its own; otherwise, God will not carry out His will in it.
#1791 When a great storm was approaching, I began to say the chaplet. Suddenly I heard the voice of an angel: “I cannot approach in this storm, because the light which comes from her mouth drives back both me and the storm.” Such was the angel’s complaint to God. I then recognized how much havoc he was to have made through this storm; but I also recognized that this prayer was pleasing to God, and that this chaplet was most powerful.
So I support the above posts when they tell you to be content at holiness, accept imperfection, but strive for perfection. And I give strong support to the idea of spending one’s time thinking about ways to serve others as well as the specific recommendations listed above as a way to help free yourself in addition to repentance and remorse.
Saul’s ferocious fervor at persecuting and killing Christians turned into St. Paul’s powerful testimony! :extrahappy:
Saints recognize their mistakes, strive to correct them to the utmost of their ability, pick themselves back up when they fall, and keep on trying!