I don’t really like Art. I see that I only liked Art because my Art teacher told me I should be one when I was six years old and it was mainly my ego talking, rather than my heart. I took pride in being told that I was a great drawer and it got to my head over the years. Now seeing that the advantages of being an artist aren’t exactly what I see as being perks, I don’t want it anymore. It just shows I never really had a passion for it.
It seems like I am more into globetrotting and international recognition and the high life than anything else. For some odd reason, it’s so darn important to me. I use this as a measure of self-worth. Not being famous to me means not worth much in life.
My drawing talents obviously mean nothing to me and I would rather live without them. I would be perfectly fine if I never had them.
So how do I pray that God takes them away? I don’t like Art for the right reasons and I have no interest in using them for the right reasons, but only what it could do for me.