I was raised extremely Catholic. It was supremely uncomfortable and I grew up ridiculously confused- I remember the experience was marked by strict elderly individuals who did not give many answers. I was definitely trained to not ask questions, or push further, which kept me in this weird situation where I was just supposed to learn about God as this “guy in the sky”. Having a personal relationship with God was nearly impossible in sterile, cattle-packed classes.
That being said, GOD to me now is an entirely different thing. This is why I’m here today. I’m starting to see a lot of patterns, which is what our brains are meant to do, and I’m coming to conclusions and understandings that I now recognize were the true teachings behind the systematic Catholic lessons I went through. It is hard for me to explain the depth of my new perspective- it’s as if I have sifted through layers upon layers upon layers (passages in holy books of all religions, recorded history, science, math, etc.) and am finally seeing the common thread between them all.
The GOD everyone has always been talking about is literally everything around us- time, space, humanity, animals, plants- you name it! GOD is an encompassing term for both the conscious (us, animals/plants) and unconscious part of the universe (rocks, space, etc.). We got so unbelievably bored being everything that we decided we wanted something to do, and made a game for ourself to play and be entertained by (which is life as we know it)- like a round of hide and seek against played by one person.
How can humans be GOD, though? If you consider GOD as the palm of your hand, you can visibly trace a line from the center to the tip of each of your fingers. Each finger is represented by a different person, showing that we are separate in our identities and in the way we perceive the world around us but the same in our origin.
If you take the Bible and understand it as how human beings have interpreted our existence/origin story rather than literal fact (because you can describe an apple being red in a thousand ways), you can apply it to other ideas humans in different parts of history have come up with. For instance, Freud’s “Id” “Ego” and “SuperEgo” can be applied over “The Father, The Son, and The Holy Spirit” and can be looked at as two different ways of saying the same thing.
Am I on the right track? I feel like I am. I know it’s very different from how I’ve always had Catholicism and religion in general described to me, but it makes too much sense to disavow these inkling ideas completely. Do you have any thoughts on this?