Please bear with me as I write this; I acknowledge that I am beyond confused right now and pretty frustrated. Hopefully I don’t come across too harshly.
I never before in my life considered the Catholic church; was not even on my radar screen at all. Didn’t know any Catholics; didn’t even know where a Catholic church was… it just was not even a blip in my thoughts. Without going through all the details right now, here’s where I am:
I have learned about the Lord since before I can even remember and consider myself to be a follower of Jesus Christ. I am intrigued by the claims of the Catholic Church: That it dates back to the time of the original Apostles and has preserved all the teachings dating back to Jesus Christ Himself.
In my studies, though, Catholicism seems absolutely foreign to me; it’s like a totally different religion to me. Most of the things that I question in regards to the Catholic faith all seem to be later developments and are not tied directly to any Apostle at all.
And Catholicism seems so rigid, so legalistic. It’s like there are more laws and rituals to follow in it than even the Jews had. My mind says to me, “Surely, Christ did not come to do away with one Law just to replace it with a whole new one”.
All these debates about this type of Mass vs. another; getting some sort of “extra credit” for saying prayers in a certain place… where did all of this come from? Who says that a Worship service can only be 1 way and no other?
I don’t know… I’m so lost and confused and the more I read here and on other Catholic web sites, the more confused I get till ultimately I feel like I’m better off (or at least I’m not any worse off) remaining where I am. (Catholics would label me a Protestant although I’ve never given that term much thought at all till I kept hearing Catholics refer to us non-Catholics/non-Orthodox with that term).
I just can’t believe that God will not honor my confession of faith, my thoughts/intentions, etc. simply because I am not a part of the “Catholic Club”. Catholics tend to present their faith as that - some sort of “In Crowd”.
I have a lot more thoughts and feelings but think this post is too long already.