Hi guys,after mass I asked the priest about this vow,he said its not valid because it wasnt done in the presence of any episcopal authority or in a church etc
he said I could still write the pope but its not neccassery and one day we can talk about it privately and pray over it.
thanks for your advices,God Bless
and yes I am struggling with chastity.Im actually seeing a married muslim woman and she wants my kids.I pray to
god to give me the grace to avoid this temptation but Ive known her for 5 yrs as a friend and we developed a strong bond and she fell in love with me and vice-versa but she says I dont truly love her if I dont make kids with her.shes not married from a church pov because shes a second wife in a polygamous relationship.shes salafi.nevertheless fornication is wrong but she keeps pushing me.she said if i dont fornicate with her she wants my sperm artificially to make children.
meanwhile my friends have assured me I can find a good catholic wife and have a legitimate means of sex one day.
everyone has a different struggle,I ask the holy spirit to protect me from sin and when I fall into it I immediately ask the father of mercy for his forgiveness,not as licence but because I mess up some times.