I suffer from panic-attacks and depression and I have a good medication for it, it does not help me to use a bus or attend mass and when I need to go to shop I must choose a time when the shop is as empty as possible from customers but my life is a bit easier with these pills. When we (me and my dog) did move to a new place in February 2012 I also was forced to change doctor. The first time I saw her she did accuse me saying I have a “serious drug-problem” (the medication I take is also, alas, one that some people do abuse) and she did make it very clear that I must stop taking them, and she also was very concerned the pills I get I may sell on the street to get money. And the icing was when she wanted to measure my blood-pressure asking first if I am right or left handed. Well, that is pretty obvious she wanted to see if I had any needle marks on my arm, and she was very harsh. I really had no other possibility to start reducing my medication, luckily very slow and during a long time. I did ask her how this will help me and the answer was that it is wrong to use these tablets for a long time and that twelve years are way to long time. Problem though is that they help me to get along, but she does not understand that. And since that day she has somehow been able to mess up almost every prescription someway, last was the “best”. The prescription is valid only eight days but she have told the pharmacy that they can not sell them before 6.11.13! (In Finland a prescription is usually valid one year.)
OK, here is the problem. She is old, well, old and old, I am 53 but she is most likely older and I think she will retire soon, but before that she have many opportunities to do real harm to many patients she treat. I know I have no legal responsibility to do anything but if I do not report her and she happen to kill someone I must live with that the rest of my life. I don’t want to do any harm, I mean, she have the right to retire without any stains on her record, so, what shall I do. I am between the rock and the hard place. I don’t like her, and what she accuse me is absolutely wrong. I do not abuse drugs neither do I sell them on the street, but even if I don’t like her I can not do anything wrong against her, at the end of the day all we have is our [good] reputation. So what shall I do? She has made up her mind about me, and could not be more wrong but that mean that if I talk with her she will not listen because all she see in me is a “drug addict” trying to get all pills I can. If I report her I may destroy her reputation. To report her may save someones life, but destroy her reputation. So, what shall I do?