I am praying for you. You are not alone as I have struggled with this more than once. Feeling close, falling into sin, feeling close, falling into sin. I always think of Jesus falling under the weight of the cross and ask Him to get me through it even though I know that the direction I am going in is wrong. It is a torment to have been convicted of and have awareness that what you are doing is grave and to not feel the love or zeal you once knew. I offer the suffering of that torment up in reparation for my sins and for other intentions and I hope and trust that He will show me a way out of the sin that I commit…again. In the meantime I resist when I can for Him and when I cannot or at times do not, I talk to Him, ask forgiveness, get to Confession and Mass, even when I am feeling non-repentant. I go in hopes that the graces will eventually remove my attachments or help give me the strength to turn away from my sins never to repeat them.
Edit: noticed after I posted that you are Baptist. I left the Confession and Mass part because that is what I do as a Catholic, but I think you can relate to the rest. God Bless you. Please pray for me, too.