I have posted a few times before and some of you may have remembered me. Now I am in a rollercoaster again as far as my emotions are concerned. To be honest, for the past few days, all I can think of is fear of going to hell. There are actually a few times that I have felt that I am actually already in hell and I am already being punished by God for the sins I have committed in the past. I do suffer from a mental illness (bipolar disorder) and for me having this illness may have contributed to having these negative thoughts.
Can someone please offer me some advice on how I can overcome this fear that I am currently experiencing? I can’t seem to concentrate on anything because all I could think of is I might end up in hell or I am already in hell. I have gone to confession 2 months ago but I still don’t have a peace of mind. I don’t know how to cope with these negative feelings and I am afraid that it might affect my relationship with my husband and my three young children.
I would appreciate any advice from anyone. Thank you for listening.