[quote="jazz91, post:1, topic:249412"]
Lately, ive been getting closer to god, i just today started reading the bible & just thinking of all the bad things ive done & how thanks to gods forgiveness i feel at peace. I have also been thinking what if i die before my family, im 19 & i have 3 brothers & my parents. I would want them to know ho much i love them after my death incase i died before them, i dont know why ive been thinking of death & me letting my family know how much i love them & wat i want to do is the following :
Write each of them a letter telling how much i love them, how much they mean to me & how much they have changed my life. but i also dont want to scare them or make them think im going to die or something, that i dont know only god knows.
What do you guys think i should do write the letters & hand them & let them know they are only allowed to read that letter if i die before them? Or just not say anything, & show them my love by my actions, & words.
Love them in the little ordinary things, right now, today. Love them with such refinement they barely sense the effort you're making. They will just naturally feel more serenity and joy being around you.
Pray for them every day. Ask God for an infinite number of days and ways to love them.
No need for private letters like this, if you love them every day. Some might wonder, upon reading such letters, "what bunk...if you loved me why didn't you visit me in the hospital, attend my baseball games, etc."
Lastly, waste no time thinking and dreaming about views and attitudes of love today or when you die, and more time loving today - doing good today, self-donating to others, quietly, with great and increasing generosity.
And think less about what others will think of you when you die, and more time asking God how you can love your friends and family. Think less about yourself, their view of you when you die...and more about what God thinks of you right now.