I’m advancing in my path back to God after avoiding Him and understanding religion superficially for more than a decade. I’m doing better each day at avoiding sin, at discovering new worldly attachments and “new” faults in my soul, and at trying to get closer to Him.
I want to gradually and consistently introduce ‘quiet prayer time’ in my life. I feel that God calls me to it, and that I need to relax a little bit: I have a job in which there are both ‘tranquil’ study moments and quite stressful ones, full of fighting and deadlines, and with an irregular income. I also have some hobbies that I enjoy a lot and that draw me closer to God, but that require a good amount of regular practice (playing musical instruments). I also like to practice competitive tennis in my club. I also suffer from regular migraines, but I usually can keep up with my schedule even if it becomes slightly harder to follow.
All of that is great, and I thank God for giving me the opportunity to enjoy everything I mentioned, from my job to the sports. But with such a ‘life rythm’, I end up having serious problems whenever I want to find both time for prayer and silence into that prayer time. I start to pray and the music I’ve been practicing constantly comes to my mind, then I start thinking on my next deadline… when I can forget it, I start thinking on my strategy for my next match, and the cycle continues until I’ve spent some time in “prayer” without actually having prayed anything.
And in the very few moments I can find some recollection, time passes so slowly that it makes me feel uncomfortable and ‘get out’ from there to come back again to my intense ‘rythm’ and fast changing thoughts.
What tips can you give me to relax myself a bit, to focus, to find recollection and get true good prayer time?